Beloved Mother,

I am very sorry.

I stand here to seek your forgiveness.

I have failed you.

In my eyes, I have failed you,

In my ears, I have failed you,

In my words, I have failed you,

In my touch, I have failed you,

I truly don’t understand you.

Please forgive me.

You are what fuels this universe.

You are what keeps me alive.

You are the connection between my body and my soul.

You are here, there, everywhere.

Dear Ma, please forgive me.

For I have disrespected you.

For I have disrespected your forms.

For I have disrespected your existence.

For I have disrespected and disregarded your effort to rise up within me.

For I have done all in my power to not feel you.

For I have denied you.

For I have shunned you.

For I have shamed you.

For I took you for granted.

For I have even dared to think that I am above you.

For I have never truly tried to know your pain.

For I don’t understand your love.

For I am only human with my follies.

For I am foolish and naïve and don’t understand your grandeur.

Ma Shakti,

I don’t know how to sing your praises.

I am a small human who doesn’t have words that can describe you.

Today I plead to you,

I am alone, helpless and desperate.

I need you more than I have ever needed you.

I need you to make yourself felt inside and around me.

I need you to know I weep for you.

I need you to know that I LOVE YOU.

I am nothing but your son and daughter.

I need you to quash my false ego.

I need you to drive me.

Please drive me.

Please love me.

Please take care of me.

I now know I will spend my whole life for you and Shiv.

Please help me spread your word.

Please help me spread your energy.

Please help me help what you truly love the most, Your Creation, Your Children.

Please merge with the Shiv within me.

Please bless me to become you.

Please help me to embody you.

Please bless me to become Shiv.

Please help me to embody Shiv.

Please help me balance the Shiv and Shakti within me.

Please be my Shakti in the truest essence.